Amazing Race

while browsing the net, i come across this video, i almost cried while watching..

Every one has their own race, we sometimes win, and lose, sometimes there are rough roads, steep areas, curves, that makes the race more difficult. we sometimes stumbles, get injured and be discourage.

yet the bible encourage us to;

Hebrews 12

 ¹ Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,

the Lord is watching every step we make in this race, He's making sure that this race is safe for us and if ever we fall, because of the world around us, don't worry He will come to  rescue you. He will heal the wounds and strengthens the weak.

the grace of God is sufficient for us and His power is made perfect in our weaknesses, for when we are weak then we are strong..

we are His beloved!! He want us to finish this race!!

God bless you!

God's Perfect Timing!

The Lord is not slow to His promises!! indeed !

remember my previous post about waiting?

finally i can say waiting is finally over on the following prayer request

Yes He answered my prayers, almost all of it!

I prayed for PS. He gave me PS more than i have ask for.

I asked for new job which offer at least higher than my current income, He gave it to me (I'm actually in the process of completing my requirements and i just needed to pass the medical exam- which i actually claiming it already =)

I asked for our wedding to be this year, and... hahaha, finally , this is what we've been waiting for!!
 although not this year but it would be sooner..

i learned a lot during this waiting process;

 not easy, my heart broke, i almost give up, but it made me stronger.

here's an outline from one of the pastor's sermon (i forgot the name)

God's Perfect timing

Psalm 33:20-22

New International Version (NIV)

 ²⁰ We wait in hope for the LORD;
   he is our help and our shield.
²¹ In him our hearts rejoice,
   for we trust in his holy name.
²² May your unfailing love be with us, LORD,
   even as we put our hope in you.

waiting brings submission,

if you already exhaust yourself from all other resources you end up running to God and allow him to move according to His will, you surrender you're will and blessings and good things start to happen.

waiting brings, stability and strength

the process of waiting helps you to learn a lot, while you are waiting you lean unto God, you seek His counsel, You seek His power and provisions through prayers. thus producing a character that helps you be firm in every situation and strengthens you.

waiting brings, serenity

after giving up and surrender everything at the cross, i experience peace, because I know that the all knowing , powerful and great God is in charge, i have nothing to worry.


after the process of waiting, the answer is so sweet, i have receive a lot, not just my prayer request - which is more than i ask, but also the lesson learned and the character it builds!!

i thank God for these

Glory to God!

Naghihintay

waiting, and still waiting

lahat tayo naranasang maghintay.

Noong sangol tayo, kelngan nating hintayin na bigayan tayo ng gatas para maka dede, maghntay na palitan ng diaper, maghintay na paliguan, katunayan kailangan pa nating umiyak para mapansin ng magulang or ng yaya. sa mga kelngan natin.

Nang magsimula akong magaral(kinder ako nun), syempre, naghintay pa din ako, hintaying ihatid ako sa school, hintying magrecess,( favorite ko yan, lalo nat hansel at zest-o ang baon ko), hintaying sunduin ng magulang. ganyan ako gang grade one ako. syempre grade one lng dahil natuto na ko nung grade 2. Grade school natuto akong maghintay, pumila sa flag ceremony, hintaying matapos ang flag ceremony, hintaying makapasok ulit sa room, hintaying makanood ng sineskwela, hintaying matapos ang palabas para magcommercial na dahil naiihi na ko. mahabang paghihintay, sa totoo lng gusto ko na maghighschool..

highschool, ganun pa din, pero may bago na, hinintay ko na  tawagan ako ng mga friends ko, ng crush/bf ko, hintaying mag prom, at syempre makagraduate.

college.. ang pinakahihintay ko, matapos ang semester, pano ba nmn, napaka hirap pumasa, sa standard ng school ko(para sa akin lng yun ah, para sa iba sisisw lng ang pag pagpasa) syempre d lng semester ang hinintay ko, pati na ang graduation, at sa awa ng Diyos nakatapos din.

board exam, eto na ata ang ang pinaka mabagal n phase ng buhay ko. bawat araw halos umiyak ako, d ko alam bakit ko ba kinuha ang kursong ito, d ko nmn kasi alam  nung una na mahirap sya, maganda lng sya pakingang (inuulit ko, para sa akin, mahirap, ewan ko sa iba). naghintay ako, unang take ko bagsak. ayun n nga ba sinasabi ko eh, hirap talga. minsan nagtanong ako sa Panginoon, ano pa kaya kulng sa akin, nagaaral nmn ako.. muli kelngan ko maghintay.

                                                              

unang trabaho, dito ko nagsimulang magbilang ng minuto bago mag alas singko(syempre waiting pa din ang tawag dun), dito ko na realized, boring pala ang profession na kinuha ko, if only i knew then, sana nag teacher na lng ako. naghintay pa din ako gang makaipon, makaipon ng pang review para sa pinkahihintay kong license.. puro paghihintay.

 eto pa isang paghihintay na tinapos ko din dahil nainip ako,  dahil akala ko, time na,  ang pagsagot sa bf ko ngayun, hehe.. Nung college kasi ako, nagpray ako na hihintayin ko ang tamang lalaki na para sa akin.. Eto yung panahon na sabi ko sa sarili ko, " waiting is finally over" .. over na nga ba?? hindi rin dahil meron pang paghihintay, (abangan)

sympre ng makaipon, nagenroll ako sa review class, d pa tapos ang paghihintay, nag aral, nagbasa, nagsolve ng problems sa P1,P2, Aud Prob, MAS, tax(may nakalimutan ba ko?), ayan, naghintay ako na sana matapos na.at yun n nga, nakuha ko na ang pinaka hihintay kong license, thanks to God! naawa din sya sa akin, hehehe

after pumasa, naghanap ng trabaho, 1 month, na vacant lng ako, hintay na tawaga ng mga company na inapplyan. hirap humanap ng trabaho, inip na inip na ko, license na nga, tagal ap din makakuha ng trabaho. at dahil sa sobrang  kainipan ko, tinanggap ko a ang trabaho kahit maliit pa sa una kong work ang sahod na inoffer.. kakainip eh, at yun n nga, tinapos ko lng ang probationary period ko dun, naghanap ulit ng iba, waiting ulit?.. nmn!

and now, almost 2 years na ko dito sa current job ko, so far nageenjoy nmn ako, pero on my 2nd year i realized something, i want a new career!, hehehe, so ayun nagaaply pa din ng bago, at syempre, "waiting" pa din. may mga tumawag pero, d pa din natangap!! haist feeling ko tuloy incompetent ako for the position. paano ba ko aasenso nito. nakakafrustrate!.. bkit lagi na lng ganito, naghihintay

what's with waiting ba??

Wait =  stay, remain, hang over, linger ,  PAUSE….

yes, to pause!! just like the word selah comes from hebrew word salah which mean to pause!!

and finally got the message:

I should be still and know that my God is God (Ps 46:10) that He knows what He is doing, He has this plan, plan to proper me! (Jer 29:11) Yes to prosper me, . how??  well,  He is able to do immeasurably anything i could ever ask or imagine (Eph 3:20) and His thoughts are higher than my thoughts and His ways are higher than mine( Isa 55:9), baka kaya wala pa ko nahahanap na bago work because He has a  grander plan, d ko lng maarok kung ano yun, hehehe and when?? amm

Ecclesiastes 3:11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet, no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

 

and why do i have to wait??

I have to learn this lessons, i have to learn to trust, to have faith on His perfect  plans, He has for me, because that's for my good. waiting is not easy, waiting could mean, frustration and deperation, could mean heart aches!! but God is molding me, to the person He wants me to be! He wants to install patience in me,He want's to boost my faith in Him.. and He wants me to be humble to put my confidence in Him alone.

all glory to God!!

the Lord keeps me waiting, i been wondering why, then i started to search.

alas singko

alas singo ang pinaka-aabangan kong oras sa maghapon.. paborito ko kasi uwian na, hahaha, nakakabagot maghintay ng oras noh? lalo na kung wala ka gingawa, haist, nalaro ko na lahat ng games na alam ko sa FB, natignan ko na lhat ng pictures, mga notifications, nakipagchat na lahat lahat ngunit napakatagal pa din dumating ng alas singko. nauumay n nga ako sa fb, kaya eto nagblog na lng ako.

minsan sa sobrang kaboryohan ko natutulog na lng ako, isa akong ulirang empleyado!! certified yan, papasok ng late uuwi ng 5:01.. san ka pa, sarap ng buhay ko no?.. pero hindi rin.. pag dating ng sahod halos wala ding natira, hahaha, ako din nmn ang dapat sisihin, tapos magrereklamao ako maliit ang sahod ko.. ang sipag ko kasi!

ganyan lagi buhay pag slack season, FB/youtube/picnik at kung ano ano pang site ang navivisit ko,puro internet brousing lng, akala ng iba masaya? akala nila enjoy pagmaghapon nakatutok sa internet. hindi rin, masakit kaya sa mata.. Haist!!! d lng yun, nakakaboring!! bakit ba kasi ako nagaccounting, maghapon lang sa office, walang thrill!! akla ko dati masaya, nagyun ko na realized ang boring ng buhay accountant..

ngayun pa ba ako magsisisi? teka lng puro ako reklamo, ano ba ang mga positibong bagay ng pagtambay sa office, isa isahin natin,

1. hindi maiinit - kasi naka aircon ka, d mo mararamdamn ang  summer heat, paguwi mo n lang,
2. may sweldo - sweldo ka sa tamang oras kahit n FB lng inatupag mo..
3. libre internet - makakapagupload ka ng picture kahit ilang oras pa abutin, makakapagbrowse ka ng kahit
                          ilang oras.
4. unlimitted coffee - yun n nga lng pinagkakaabalahan ko minsan, ang humigop ng kape
5. at iba pa - iisipin ko muna.

ang ibang tao walang trabaho, kaya ipagpasalamat mo na lng na naghihintay ka lng ng uwian.. hehehe

hay bkit ko ba to nilalagay dito!! ah ewan!!

First Time!!

oh, yeah, this is my first blog, my first time,.. thanks to jopan for helping me here. i am not a fan of blogs nor  read  blogs, although some times i get to visit some, but not actually read them, i just happen to look for the pictures, hahaha, anyway, why did I create one?.. hmmn, no specific reason yet, still thinking why??


amm.. maybe because i missed writing my feelings =), i used to write everything in my journal/diary, its my way of relieving my self for all the emotions, whether am happy, sad, angry and confused, I actually have them in a box, or "baul".. I stopped doin it when I become too busy with my work, and now, i think there's a need to put it all again in writing.


ahh!! eto n nga, why do I need this??


my ultimate reason, i feel, i will explode anytime.. hmmn, been escaping and hiding it all within me, been a long time since i wrote it down.. i feel dry, exhausted, tired, worn out, physically,emotionally and sadly, spiritually.. maybe because of my busy schedule at work, working overtime, staying late at night or should i say staying up till dawn, plus  all the porblems..

Yet I still praise God because He sustain me through this times, i still have the reason to sing, thank God for His unfailing love and His grace..

so for now eto muna ang masasabi ko.. hehehe